I have become a Social Media addict. With all these new ways to stay in touch, I find myself spending 2-4 hours a day EVERY DAY just updating all my sites. I used to have 2. My email and my website. Now there's Twitter (@sierrapscott), Facebook, Linkedin, My Space, Classmates.com, and about a dozen others. These sites have been both wonderful and painful. Wonderful in that I have managed to reconnect with a lot of people I had lost touch with YEARS ago! Painful in that some of the people I have tried to "friend" have rejected me. I have to admit that HURTS. A lot. Why is is that you can have 600 people who want to be your "friends", but you tend to focus on the 5 or 6 who don't? I have been agnozing over a person I "hurt" back in my college days for the past 3 days. And I mean REALLY AGONIZED over this. I tried to "friend him", but he rejected my offer. I really wanted to tell him how sorry I was, how ignorant I was, how immaturely I handled the situation, but because he won't "allow me to have access" I don't have the ability.

    I just feel so horrible about this... and have to admit it's really taken a toll on me. Why can't I let go of this and just move on?

    It was a STUPID mistake. But maybe there are some mistakes in life that we just never end up paying for. Why am I dwelling on this? I actually had thought about him off and on through the years, but until this "outright rejection" I hadn't experienced the pain again. it's like losing a person  you really care about all over again.

    I almost feel like I'm back in High School and being "rejected" by people in the "in crowd". Do we ever really get over that "need to belong"? Or is it just me? I'm I being silly by spending all this time analyzing the situation and focusing on that "one person who hates me"? (By the way I realize there's more than just one person who hates me, but this one really hurts)

   I HATE being rejected. Especially when I'm trying to open my heart.